month of barakah

by the time im posting this entry, its already 1 Ramadhan 1434..waiting for Isya' and for musolla..still got time to write this (lol should be recite for Quran)..but somehow still wanna say it for antum and for me as we entered this month of barakah..let us do not waste it..i wont write the perks (fadhilat) of this month cause im pretty sure antum knew it better than me i bet..just that i say it again..do not waste it..cause Ramadhan is sure to come every year..but either we meet it again or not,  you cant say it with confidence..we got nothing..we're far from the opportunity to syahid, we dont have that kind of money to pray in front of Kaabah and etc..but still we got Ramadhan to fill..that the special things to us..30 days with the first 10 is rahmah (blessing), the next 10 is maghfirah (forgiveness), and the last 10 is the releasing from an-nar (hell)..looks how He really love us..the ummah of Muhammad pbuh..we just really got no shame if we still insist to let the month flow as nothing..so thats the only message from me for antum and myself for this Ramadhan..Ramadhan Kareem!!! Allahuakram!!!

this is one of the prayer that our prophet Muhammad pbuh suggested to us for Ramadhan

Ordinary Students Extraordinary Muslim (O.S.E.M)

aku memerhati..melihat semua yang hadir..panorama sekolah yang tak berubah pun dari waktu aku meninggalkannya sampailah yang sekarang..tapi perubahannya pada penghuninya..baru-baru ni sekolah aku adakan Kem Tunas Muda anjuran BADAR sekolah dengan kerjasama Alumni SMKAB..kami, alumni berkumpul awal sehari sebelum program..gembiranya tak dapat aku nak ceritakan bertemu dengan kawan-kawan yang dah lama sekali tak bersapa muka..tak apa abaikan kerinduan itu..apa yang penting mereka membuatkan aku CEMBURU dan MARAH dengan diriku!!!

kawan-kawanku semuanya semakin hebat..kami tak dilatih memandang akademik sebagai ukuran..tapi Keagamaan dan Kepimpinan..ada yang majlis tertinggi ISIUKM, exco keagamaan, gelaran ustaz, ustazah dan macam-macam lagi sumbangan dalam Islam..ilmu mereka pulak masyaAllah...mereka tidak berserban..mereka tidak berjam-jam memakai jubah dan ketayap..mereka biasa..merendah diri dalam istilahku..tidak aku memandang jawatan itu..tetapi bagaimana mereka mengekalkan diri mereka dalam landasan harakah Islamiah itu..mereka bertanya kepadaku macam mana qudwahmu di universiti.."ya syeikh Majdi..enta di sana macam mana??" tapi aku hanya "ana tiada apa-apa"..reaksi seakan-akan terkejut itu ada di wajah mereka..kerana mereka mengharapkan yang lebih daripadaku..sekadar membimbing sebuah kumpulan usrah kecil, sumbanganku bagaikan bukan apa-apa..aku malu untuk memberitahu....jawatanku sebagai setiausaha BADAR  di sekolah suatu ketika dulu tidakku bawa mehnahnya..maaf sahabat..itu dulu..

tidak aku mengejar jawatan..tidak juga aku iri hati dengan jawatan mereka..cuma sesatnya aku membawa diri dalam arena berdikari di daerah Islami adalah memalukan..takuk lama ilmu di dada buat aku marah diri seketika..tiada sumbanganku pada agama..apatah lagi aku sekarang terumbang-ambing dalam membimbing diri sendiri..aku tak tahu berapa lama lagi aku dapat bertahan sebelum betul-betul tenggelam..untuk aku, rasa beruntung dipertemukan dan menyimpan nama mereka sebagai sahabat..antum semua OSEM !!!

"ya Allah..ampuni aku hambamu yang hina dan kerdil ini"

ini mereka..insan-insan yang bakal menggegar dunia Islam suatu masa kelak..InshaAllah :)

bakal kekasih halalku

aku menanti dia..aku bertekad sekalinya ku dapat dengan sepastinya..akan ku tutup dirinya dari pandangan dunia..niqab disulami hijab yang melabuh..kerana dia hanyalah bakal kekasih halal bagi diriku sahaja :)

aku punya seseorang..tapi punya itu hanya termaktub selepas akad yang sah..moga Allah menetapkan yang pewaris Siti Khadijah bagiku..Ameen

caught

Dulu sampai sekarang, takda benda lain..being caught in the situation where from my sight just a simple thing but complicated on others..is it really me put that thing at the wrong site or others make it like that..but questioning myself doesn't seem to solve anything..once a teacher asked to calculate my own future based on my date of birth..sound like the "syirik" thing for you guys maybe..but somehow it just the knowledge of metaphysics (depend on our intention)..and so yeah..from the pyramid of number mine caught in that damn 8 number which symbolic the unsolved problem..bestowed by Him (blessing in disguise) for me


                                                                                               lets just build it back..mind and everything

dream

woah!!! really got something here.

Someone said, "you really got a nice blog..i mean the way you talked and wrote..but somehow kinda messed up..why?? because you just wrote whatever you wanna say right..what if im suggesting you to stay for the one thing only..and i quite interested with our conversation just now..shared bout our dream..and you really always caught into such a nice dream..WHAT IF YOU SHARE ABOUT IT WITH YOUR READERS?? "

Ok wow. Im stucked for a while. The suggestion really get me into it. Cause it so yeahh, Matlutfi got his own own jokes but im not a joker, my friend's blog have their own style but im not that kind. So what if i do this. Not waste for anything if i give a try. LOL
so then, wait arrr you guys.....

let us open the gate of the new world......it's a DREAM!!! a WONDERLAND!!!

unexpected

Let just say i got two words to view tonight "not flexible". Can give a lot of damn evil things bout this two words. And the best part is just all bout us HUMAN or PEOPLE or FELLA or maybe FOLKS or right for sure it is ME. Then i told you "hey, we really have a crazy life right?" and the answer always be "YEAH YOU DAMN RIGHT..crazy life is all what we called got LIFE" but for certain condition we need to really be careful with any words that gonna jump out from that little thing known as MOUTH. Just kinda to avoid it from reverse curse. I got myself a really good morals for today. First is "not flexible"- people are not so like that as you look they are or THEY SAID THEY WERE. Second "not flexible"- you might be thought as full of yourself by not doin' that. Third "not flexible"- it'll caused YOU or OTHERS to be hurt.

 *how i really wish can live by myself and get a place where got no one in-self profound

please

for each and everything that happened in my life..i felt good..great things to know you guys in the path of my life..maybe for sometimes i wanna be close with you..and maybe with other people..but trust me..i dont know if i really can say this..but somekind i felt im an expert already..make hurt or getting hurt by others..adapted if it in one word..it became tone of my life..where it got plus (+) here or minus (-) there or even equal (=) here and there..so please...dont be so nice to me..afraid that it might hurt you or maybe im hurting you..because im not good..and word bad was really suit me..SORRY..that is the only thing i can say right now

  you can just ignore me even if i fell in front of you..hesitated??? there's no need..