month of barakah

by the time im posting this entry, its already 1 Ramadhan 1434..waiting for Isya' and for musolla..still got time to write this (lol should be recite for Quran)..but somehow still wanna say it for antum and for me as we entered this month of barakah..let us do not waste it..i wont write the perks (fadhilat) of this month cause im pretty sure antum knew it better than me i bet..just that i say it again..do not waste it..cause Ramadhan is sure to come every year..but either we meet it again or not,  you cant say it with confidence..we got nothing..we're far from the opportunity to syahid, we dont have that kind of money to pray in front of Kaabah and etc..but still we got Ramadhan to fill..that the special things to us..30 days with the first 10 is rahmah (blessing), the next 10 is maghfirah (forgiveness), and the last 10 is the releasing from an-nar (hell)..looks how He really love us..the ummah of Muhammad pbuh..we just really got no shame if we still insist to let the month flow as nothing..so thats the only message from me for antum and myself for this Ramadhan..Ramadhan Kareem!!! Allahuakram!!!

this is one of the prayer that our prophet Muhammad pbuh suggested to us for Ramadhan

Ordinary Students Extraordinary Muslim (O.S.E.M)

aku memerhati..melihat semua yang hadir..panorama sekolah yang tak berubah pun dari waktu aku meninggalkannya sampailah yang sekarang..tapi perubahannya pada penghuninya..baru-baru ni sekolah aku adakan Kem Tunas Muda anjuran BADAR sekolah dengan kerjasama Alumni SMKAB..kami, alumni berkumpul awal sehari sebelum program..gembiranya tak dapat aku nak ceritakan bertemu dengan kawan-kawan yang dah lama sekali tak bersapa muka..tak apa abaikan kerinduan itu..apa yang penting mereka membuatkan aku CEMBURU dan MARAH dengan diriku!!!

kawan-kawanku semuanya semakin hebat..kami tak dilatih memandang akademik sebagai ukuran..tapi Keagamaan dan Kepimpinan..ada yang majlis tertinggi ISIUKM, exco keagamaan, gelaran ustaz, ustazah dan macam-macam lagi sumbangan dalam Islam..ilmu mereka pulak masyaAllah...mereka tidak berserban..mereka tidak berjam-jam memakai jubah dan ketayap..mereka biasa..merendah diri dalam istilahku..tidak aku memandang jawatan itu..tetapi bagaimana mereka mengekalkan diri mereka dalam landasan harakah Islamiah itu..mereka bertanya kepadaku macam mana qudwahmu di universiti.."ya syeikh Majdi..enta di sana macam mana??" tapi aku hanya "ana tiada apa-apa"..reaksi seakan-akan terkejut itu ada di wajah mereka..kerana mereka mengharapkan yang lebih daripadaku..sekadar membimbing sebuah kumpulan usrah kecil, sumbanganku bagaikan bukan apa-apa..aku malu untuk memberitahu....jawatanku sebagai setiausaha BADAR  di sekolah suatu ketika dulu tidakku bawa mehnahnya..maaf sahabat..itu dulu..

tidak aku mengejar jawatan..tidak juga aku iri hati dengan jawatan mereka..cuma sesatnya aku membawa diri dalam arena berdikari di daerah Islami adalah memalukan..takuk lama ilmu di dada buat aku marah diri seketika..tiada sumbanganku pada agama..apatah lagi aku sekarang terumbang-ambing dalam membimbing diri sendiri..aku tak tahu berapa lama lagi aku dapat bertahan sebelum betul-betul tenggelam..untuk aku, rasa beruntung dipertemukan dan menyimpan nama mereka sebagai sahabat..antum semua OSEM !!!

"ya Allah..ampuni aku hambamu yang hina dan kerdil ini"

ini mereka..insan-insan yang bakal menggegar dunia Islam suatu masa kelak..InshaAllah :)

bakal kekasih halalku

aku menanti dia..aku bertekad sekalinya ku dapat dengan sepastinya..akan ku tutup dirinya dari pandangan dunia..niqab disulami hijab yang melabuh..kerana dia hanyalah bakal kekasih halal bagi diriku sahaja :)

aku punya seseorang..tapi punya itu hanya termaktub selepas akad yang sah..moga Allah menetapkan yang pewaris Siti Khadijah bagiku..Ameen

caught

Dulu sampai sekarang, takda benda lain..being caught in the situation where from my sight just a simple thing but complicated on others..is it really me put that thing at the wrong site or others make it like that..but questioning myself doesn't seem to solve anything..once a teacher asked to calculate my own future based on my date of birth..sound like the "syirik" thing for you guys maybe..but somehow it just the knowledge of metaphysics (depend on our intention)..and so yeah..from the pyramid of number mine caught in that damn 8 number which symbolic the unsolved problem..bestowed by Him (blessing in disguise) for me


                                                                                               lets just build it back..mind and everything

dream

woah!!! really got something here.

Someone said, "you really got a nice blog..i mean the way you talked and wrote..but somehow kinda messed up..why?? because you just wrote whatever you wanna say right..what if im suggesting you to stay for the one thing only..and i quite interested with our conversation just now..shared bout our dream..and you really always caught into such a nice dream..WHAT IF YOU SHARE ABOUT IT WITH YOUR READERS?? "

Ok wow. Im stucked for a while. The suggestion really get me into it. Cause it so yeahh, Matlutfi got his own own jokes but im not a joker, my friend's blog have their own style but im not that kind. So what if i do this. Not waste for anything if i give a try. LOL
so then, wait arrr you guys.....

let us open the gate of the new world......it's a DREAM!!! a WONDERLAND!!!

unexpected

Let just say i got two words to view tonight "not flexible". Can give a lot of damn evil things bout this two words. And the best part is just all bout us HUMAN or PEOPLE or FELLA or maybe FOLKS or right for sure it is ME. Then i told you "hey, we really have a crazy life right?" and the answer always be "YEAH YOU DAMN RIGHT..crazy life is all what we called got LIFE" but for certain condition we need to really be careful with any words that gonna jump out from that little thing known as MOUTH. Just kinda to avoid it from reverse curse. I got myself a really good morals for today. First is "not flexible"- people are not so like that as you look they are or THEY SAID THEY WERE. Second "not flexible"- you might be thought as full of yourself by not doin' that. Third "not flexible"- it'll caused YOU or OTHERS to be hurt.

 *how i really wish can live by myself and get a place where got no one in-self profound

please

for each and everything that happened in my life..i felt good..great things to know you guys in the path of my life..maybe for sometimes i wanna be close with you..and maybe with other people..but trust me..i dont know if i really can say this..but somekind i felt im an expert already..make hurt or getting hurt by others..adapted if it in one word..it became tone of my life..where it got plus (+) here or minus (-) there or even equal (=) here and there..so please...dont be so nice to me..afraid that it might hurt you or maybe im hurting you..because im not good..and word bad was really suit me..SORRY..that is the only thing i can say right now

  you can just ignore me even if i fell in front of you..hesitated??? there's no need..

i wanna

seriously i really wanna enjoy myself right now with my friends..laughing together..together create the moment..and i think im on it...

at least if "that thing" gonna be true..i'll not regret myself for not spending time with my beloved friends.......

hey

Memories, supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go.
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong, movin' on.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.
And I turn around

nostalgic moment

"saya ada buku"..it always be a sentence that start with da word "saya ada bla..bla..bla.."
is actually how i started to learn writing..mom taught me how..and so yeah im not like other people..went for kindergarden or preschooling..not because having a financial problem..my brother and sister went there what..asking and the answer just "saja"-pa said..

now already grew up..think bout the past seriously kinda make me suddenly laughed and people thought im crazy..LOL..but is no big deal..
maniac could said "you shouldn't think bout the past,,just you cant move forward because of it"..LMAO who cares..even the memento still there..and even the past much much more better compared to this day

"well-wisher" "conflict"

is it im really feel that way or...im the one..the only one that force myself to feel that way..simple word "is it im denying it?????? "

                                                                                 do i really need to give a damn on it?????

warghhh syoknya masuk u!!!

depa cakap hidup kat universiti memang indah..boleh enjoy..banyak time free..lepak-lepak dengan kawan..tapi persoalannya sapa depa tu yang dok cakap mcm tu??? nak habaq mai..pengaruh tv ja tuh..dok tengok dalam drama-drama melayu..masuk u dok bercinta sana sini..scenes yang masuk kelasnya ada lar 2-3 minit ja..yg len..*sigh

scenes drama melayu
      "laki buat-buat keluar library..then watak pompuannya lalu jugak depan library time tuh..then langgar..buku jatuh..kutip buku sama-sama..pegang-pegang tgn and terus bercinta.."

nampak tuh mcm mana drama melayu dok tekan suh bercinta bila masuk u..sbb tu lah aku pun terpengaruh nak bgtau kat ampa..bkn bercinta yg aq maksud kan..tapi nya dh set mai u boleh enjoy-enjoy..belajar-belajar tolak tepi..tapi sekarang bila aku memang dh pijak kaki kat u ni..baru tau langit tinggi ka rendah..assignment bertimbun..tiap-tiap ari masuk kelas then abih kelas dok depan laptop ngadap assignment..tup..tup..dh final exam..pulun-pulun study result besa-besa ja..nampak la kan sbb hati dh set masuk u nk enjoy..belajar pon dh tak ikhlas..lupa mana 1 yg wajib..

        So untuk junior-juniorku yang baru nk masuk u tuh..tetapkan lah niat siap-siap..set belajar kerana Allah..baru hidup berkat dunia akhirat..Ameen..

#entry lepas stress lab report yang siang malam pulun dok buat kena reject sbb salah letak tajuk file ja :'((

penyakit

Assalamualaikum..sekarang ni dh rasa macam makin seronok nak update blog ni..yer ahh, sebelum ni asyik dok update kias bagai..orang nk baca pon tak faham..so sekarang ni back to reality..it is "tone of life" right..everything has its own rhytm..let just follow it then..

     so nk kongsi sikit lar sem ni punya penyakit..baru ni cakap pasal kelas yang asyik cancel..so lets talk bout it consequences..yang paling obvious la kan..semestinya TIDUR!!!!!!



 memang dah jadi habit yang nyata..*sigh..takde kelas..takde lah nk revise nya..esaimen pon tak banyak lar..so tido la keja..it should be sem ni banyak esaimen..banyak kelas because sem ni boleh kata ambik all the killer subject..but then opposite pulak yang berlaku..so tahu la mcm mana kan exam nanti..moga Allah bukak hati ni utk buang tabiat tido tu..less talk..less sleep..less calory(*tetiba)..more productivity..

so then until the next post..wassalam..

*sigh

assalamualaikum bro n sis semua..tak ada benda pon sebenarnya nk update..tapi sebab dgn internet connection laju ni meng'excited'kan diri pulak utk update menatang ni..hahah..

 saja nak share sikit pasal sem 2 yg baru buka ni..STRESS BAQ ANG!!!!! kelas asyik tak ada je..bunyi mcm poyo tak..hahahah..tapi betullah..seronok mmg seronok tapi tension pulak kelas asyik tak ada..nanti nak ganti bagai..ayat marah ni..marah nii!!!!kbai *sigh

we just lost

FOUR days already passed..Prophet Muhammad SAW birthday..on that 4 days people celebrated..twitter kept on trending..facebook kept on updating..blogger kept on writing..but somehow it just on that day..now it was no longer..we start to forget..we jump again into our old pool of life..all the word that we just said on the past few days meant nothing..how could we could we do that to the ONLY ONE person that promised us syafaa't on that last day..but what to do..because that actually us..

o' Allah..i defer myself to you..seek for your forgiveness..ameenn

kita melihat

Dunia biasanya melihat kita..kita pun memang selalu melihat dunia..sejak diazankan di telinga kanan dan diiqamahkan di telinga kira..rasanya kita sudah patut memahami tanggungjawab kita..amar ma'ruf nahi munkar..hidup sentiasa berkisarkan perkara ini..merangkak..berjalan..berlari menempuh semua ini..adakah cukup..daie' yang menjadi tanggungjawab kita..ikrar yang kita lakukan setiap hari di depan Yang Maha Kuasa setiap hari..sedarkah??tahukah??ya atau tidak..tepuk dada tanya iman..

firman Allah " Kami tidak meminta rezeki daripadamu, (bahkan) Kamilah yang memberi rezeki kepadamu dan (ingatlah) kesudahan yang baik adalah bagi orang yang bertakwa.” (Surah Toha,ayat 132)

kita x hidup sendirian..ketika bersaudara..ummah fisabilillah..lemah bergantung pada yang kuat..kurang pengetahuan bergantung pada ilmuan..hidup membimbing..tapi mampukah kita???

عن أبي سعيد الخدري رضى الله عنه قا ل : سمعت رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم يقول : من رأى منكم منكرا فليغيره بيده فاءن لم يستطع فبلسانه فاءن لم يستطع فبقلبه وذلك اضعف الايمان. رواه مسلم .

Maksudnya: Daripada Abu Said Al-Khudri r.a, beliau berkata: Aku mendengar Rasulullah SAW bersabda: Sesiapa di kalangan kamu yang melihat kemungkaran hendaklah dia mengubahnya dengan tangan, sekiranya dia tidak mampu hendaklah mengubahnya dengan lidah, sekiranya tidak mampu hendaklah dia mengubah dengan hati dan mengubah dengan hati adalah selemah-lemah iman.

goodbye youth

being a bit late to post this..just because kinda have a little bit problem with my internet connection here..so people..its 2013..1st day of it..1st January of 2013..meaning a lot actually..and i already knocked the door of my adult day..a lot of things to come..a lot of things to think..what was need to be stressed out here was the kind of lot of responsibility..matured thingy and etc..people changed..so do i..but how we gonna changed was depend on us..it was a natural thing to human actually..wanna change from bad to good..but that natural thing positive thing ain't exposed because we human was denying it..so what i'm trying to said..lets just change ourself  before trying to find others..that the only way to make us better..because we human was an absolutely cant get out from making mistake..lets make 2013 as the year to find our own mistake and faults and make a change on it of course..there's no need to worry because He was an oft-forgiving..always seek for it and you will found it.. 

                       and if we can be as the first we were born..its good what..people loves us at that time:)